me and august 29. 2013

things to analyze:

 

maybe i’m not a bad person but just strange or just strangely fucked.

mind/head/

ways to cope (good bad required or insane)

life and love – relationships and such

therapy and whether it is going to help me. maybe not him. maybe i need to approach the c.b.t. by myself

diet and grocery list

poems

how clean is this place? pretty clean for a guy

thinking of the past as an enemy?

hobbies. do i watch too many movies and smoke too many cigarettes? hmmmmmmm. no.

medications. pills pills pills. all the time like i am goddamn dying. am i dying? i mean faster than most people

guilt. ugh. analyze my guilt. it stinks like guilt should

start writing song lyrics or religious erotic fiction? or neither of those quite yet

why i cannot stop making lists

brain shocks

why it hurts to make lists

going forward but sideways first and sleep and dreams and shit like that.

 

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~ by alltheavenueslookugly on 2013/08/29.

5 Responses to “me and august 29. 2013”

  1. Like a rip current. You can’t just swim forward or you’ll never get out. Sideways first. But you’re a strong swimmer. Religious erotic fiction. Very Interesting.

  2. I like your mind. We are all strange and strangely fucked. And you can never watch too many movies. Lists are a defense against the gathering darkness, but awful how they can swallow you and spit you out, too. You write poetry? Would like to see some. I have scatterings of it at http://lepuslugubris.blogspot.com/ … BDErline.net is down, replaced by http://sisyphusbound.weebly.com/. I wish I would visit you more often, but so many times I just don’t visit anyone. Hope you are well, and holding on.

    • hey man, long time no talk. but no worries, as i find it hard to be internet social myself.
      i do write some poetry, not as much anymore, but i’ve been thinking of putting some up. i will definitely check yours out tho.
      take care always.

  3. (I think my comment disappeared, so I apologize if this is doubled.)

    I like your mind. We are all strange and strangely fucked. You can never watch too many movies. You write poetry? Would like to see some. I have scatterings over at http://lepuslugubris.blogspot.com/ … BDErline.net is dead, replaced by Sisyphus Bound (linked to name). I wish I would visit you more often, but so often I don’t visit anyone at all. It’s hard to be social.

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