me and may 03

things that i know as of 7:28 p. m. rant spilling out over cups and buckets

brain hurts too hard to begin to know how to cry.

self-injury is a persistent motherfucker.

internalize.

take blame.

realize – it is YOU.

you.

you.

 

there is nothing that anybody can tell me that will make anything okay.

amd

i’ll keep the nuthouse on speed dial.

i’ll remember my monotone answers to stupid questions from staff members who recite the words that mean absolutely nothing to them.

ear-plugs to silence the screams of those who are way more gone than i am. those that already know what i am just beginning to see – that ocean of loneliness just keeps going on and on and on and on.

remember to drink your chocolate milk.

wrap it up.

curtain.

bow.

applause.

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~ by alltheavenueslookugly on 2012/05/03.

4 Responses to “me and may 03”

  1. Very poetic Sean.

    I hope that the self-harm is not too bad Sean – You don’t deserve to hurt yourself.

  2. Hope you are Ok 😦

  3. I like keep the nuthouse on speed dial, that’s kind of how I have felt lately.

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