me and january 06
status: no change. up or down. maybe a little more down. this would be the most boring roller coaster in the world if it weren’t so incredibly frightening.
there are so many things i want to do. i get sad when i hear of people who are able to conquer their shit and do amazing things. i wish i could. i can’t even force myself to do the things that i love to do.
i feel like i’ve given up. it’s hard to draw the line between acceptance and giving up, but i think deep down that i have crossed that line.
that light that everyone talks about–it’s not that bright anymore.
if emotions could just calm down.
there is no way to pull myself out of this.
i can only do what i can until i am done doing shit.
alltheavenueslookugly 
Day at a time ((((hugs)))))
As above. Sending hugs xx
I have been there my friend… and still go there on a weekly basis. The “light” gets hard to see… but sometimes I feel like our intense emotions are that “light”, we just have to figure out how to deal with them in the right way.
I feel like I never accomplish anything… it is horrible. I have attempted college 3 times, been divorced twice. Engaged 3. One intense and horrible roller coaster. We will get our reward one day… have strength.
i am sure trying. each day is a different struggle, and each hour is a different intensity of that struggle.
just keep hanging in there. both of us. 🙂
precisely!
In proper place, intensity can be a beautiful thing. 🙂
oh, i agree. 🙂