me and october 09.
spend too much time locked in my head, and after little to no sleep this week feeling kind of numb.
it’s a rainy day, which does help.
but i’ve been having nightmares and these days are all so short. and these nightmares get so so real.
i’m trying to think of a good reason to bother leaving the house if i can hire a neighbor to go buy my cigarettes and cherry coke.
ugh. say what you will about drinking and how it makes things worse–but hopefully you will never know.
this should have been a list, labeled ‘don’t worry about making sense.’
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